A Moment of Self Reflections and Ranting…
– George Burns
How did I go from the “Where the Party At?” Calls,
to the
“Can the kids spend the night with you, while we go out calls?”
From conversations fueled with tales of debachuery from the previous weekend
to mundane conversations about my aches and pains??
Constantly singing woe as me songs….Granted, this year has been a helluva a year for my health. Past two years have been spent grieving. But, my health and loss are something that I have spent a lifetime dealing with. I’m a bouncer backer, a keep looking ahead type of person…when did I become the type of person to allow myself to wallow in funk?
Some blame my newfound “Boring” on my relationship. Said I had become a housewife. Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy my relationship, I do find comfort and fun in it. I mean, who can’t love a man, when you ask him what turns him on, what would he like to see or have you do, he simply states, ” You turn me on, I’ll take you straight, no chaser” Who says he’s reminded he’s in love…”When every morning I look at you, with eye boogers, and crusty lips, and say..I could wake up to this forever.” lmao..so romantic. But, sometimes we get on each others damn nerves..lol, and he gets out and I do too!
My mom says that I’m simply..growing up. Ok, maybe, but who says growing up has to be this got damn boring?!!!!
So, it’s about that time, it’s 2009, and its time to make a bunch of resolutions that I WILL stick too, you see I’m anal, I make an objective list then I put it on a spread sheet with dates to achieve by.
My Resolutions-
1. To Challenge myself to do something New everyday-no matter how mundane
2. To visit at least 1 memeber of yadig, before we get distracted and forget about each other.
3. Take up a salsa class, (cause I love it, and I love dancing)
4. Get Healthy and fit–this is a lifestyle change, I’m committed it to it (tired of talking about body aches…I’m too young for that ish)
5. Have sex in a public place (been there, done that, why not do it again)
6. Take my kids on a long overdue vacation.
7. Stop talking about this damn disease, unless its about educating. Never talked about it in the past, not going to allow it to be what I’m about.
8. Become a Vixen…again..lol
9. Get my hair like Taraji Henson in Jamie Fox’s new video, I love that cut, time for a change.
10. Go to carnival in Antigua
11. Have a girlfriends only lunch at least once a month with my girls.
and a host of other things I haven’t listed yet…. time to get on the bandwagon, what are some of your resolutions for 2009? Come on entertain me this Tues, or the highlight of the day will be the finale of Paris Hilton’s My BFF, yeah..it’s that bad.

December 2, 2008 at 1:44 pm
First of all…..maybe YOU think you talk too much about your “woes” but I don’t see you like that AT ALL. I never knew any details about it until I asked you and that was only like a month ago.
Ok….I need to think about 2009 resolutions…good post though…lemme think
December 2, 2008 at 1:51 pm
I feel you PRO and I think its the responsibilities of life …at least for me…you get so caught up doing what you have to do …and rarely make time for what you want to do…
what’s the sudden urge to do Carnival in Antigua? who’s from there lol…
have you ever been to carnival anywhere yet?
never heard you complain you just vent and its actually rare…especially compared to muah lol I’m a major venter….thank god for you guys no one else cares enough to listen:)
OH NO why don’t we live CLOSER!!! I have been wanting to do Salsa or any spanish dance lessons for years…..I’m with you on meeting everyone too enough is enough…
haha I started the healthy lifestyle then fell off…struggling to get back on the wagon…I feel your pain…but seriously try that site I told you about they send you emails so you can’t forget to do it…
hmmm mine…give me a minute…
December 2, 2008 at 1:56 pm
what’s the sudden urge to do Carnival in Antigua? who’s from there lol…
have you ever been to carnival anywhere yet?
Dated a guy from there once, (I’ll send you his pic Jin, and he always talked about how beautiful it is there, so I want to go)
I just never have talked so much about shizz that I go through, I’m usually a very, very positive person, I don’t talk about negative stuff, because it becomes who you are…I’ve allowed my circumstances to define me way too much this year.
December 2, 2008 at 2:03 pm
1) Avoid negative people, vibes and thoughts at all costs – everyone’s entitled to their opinion they don’t have to agree with mine and it’s ok
Believe in my dreams again – I’m getting there but need to put more action behind it’
2) Continue encouraging my daughter to be a scholar in school yet still be able to socialize with friends through different outings to exciting places/experiencing new things not just mindless play…
3) BE MORE PATIENT with everything and everyone (did I mention I had to cuss someone out who came out their face last night oops another story for another time lol)
4) Balance focusing on me with all my other relationships as friend, sister, mother, whatever….
5) Put ME FIRST – love myself more….always thinking of everyone else & their feelings way too much,trying to figure out what they mean/need/want – need to do/say what I feel and not feel guilty about it…just move on…
6) Give back more – I organize an annual Winter Gift program at my job for NY Cares and we get employees to donate gifts to children throughout the 5 boros but I need to do more on a monthly basis – maybe volunteer at a teen center or something
7) Plan a vacation at least a mini wknd or something before March – I need me time – its a necessity:)
9) WRITE WRITE WRITE
10) Plan and follow through on a Yadig peeps trip – we must we must we must!!!! lolz…if we plan ahead, synchronize schedules/child care lol…and take advantage of cheap fares (so that we have more party/drinking money lmao)…it will definitely be worth it:)
11) Worked hard in 2007 to re-connect with many of my family members – need to continue this cycle- plan a trip for the nieces/nephews and my daughter to FL to visit their fam…
11) LIVE MY LIFE TO THE FULLEST…stop letting the bumps get me down…cease every moment, find joy in every day like I used to…I’ve lost my permanent sunshine – need to re-connect with that ..I know its still in me somewhere:)
December 2, 2008 at 2:07 pm
Y’all go to http://www.youknowyoudeadazzwrong.com/ and look at episode 905, this shizz made me want to kill myself…
December 2, 2008 at 2:08 pm
amen to that Pro I’m realizing that…it works for a while then I fall into my woe is me syndrome…working on snapping out of that crap as we speak lol….
everyone has their struggles just gotta smile on:)
Well keep me posted on Antigua if you want company – my daughter’s other family is from there…oh forgot to add that one lol
12) Cease contact with my daughter’s dad and his wife and don’t let them contact me too much negativity and they have nothing to offer but drama and verbal abuse…tried to be civil abut once again I was shot down…some thing’s never change…and its time for me to stop allowing them to pollute my life…my daughter’s old enough to contact him herself when she wants to…
December 2, 2008 at 2:10 pm
I feel you on that one Jin. I omitted myself completely when it comes to my kids and their dads. And you know what, I get along with both of them, for the most part.
I sent you the pic
December 2, 2008 at 2:13 pm
Pro, if it’s any consolation, I just don’t define you in that way, not even for a minute. You have a lot more energy than I do and I have no physical limitations whatsoever. You know you better than I know you, so I know you feel differently about it. I don’t get negative from you…I mean…ever, really.
So I thought….
And came to a conclusion you might not like, lol…but I’m not adverse to being “boring” by other people’s standards. I would say that what I want soon is:
1) to meet or reconnect with some people here that I used to go out and do stuff with, in the event that I want to do stuff
2) meet a man, also HERE, that is single, sexy, cute, and interesting, to come over and snuggle with me every once in a while. And then go back to his house. At least for today….I’m not interested in a sex-only relationship.
3) Do the one-week house rental in the Outer Banks again. Sooo not exciting, but sooo perfect.
Maybe I’m getting old and it’s okay with me. In the back of my mind, I expect life to change a lot in about 5 or 6 years so I’m just biding my time, and I don’t really feel like I need to rock the boat.
December 2, 2008 at 2:14 pm
If you was a dude FB, I’d make you my mistress..yes I would. Can’t marry you, cause you still married..lol
December 2, 2008 at 2:15 pm
yeah well I’m hardheaded and though I stopped speaking this whole court thing – I was just like look I need my loot!!! by any means necessary…the chick was staying out then I get an email today about some damn mess..saying that I said bad things about her and her daughter…Pro I swear all I said to his mom and honestly anyone can hear I could care less its true…was that BOTH KIDS deserve the same at all times….why does one come way before my daughter? and everyone including the wife came after my child…but he or his mom twisted the mess to appeal to their situation and convict me so this dumb butt steps to me via email about I’m ghetto and its over my head and she takes care of her kid why don’t I take care o fmine I’m like WTF??? you don’t even know me…just tired…sad but I don’t think I’ll have anymore children and this entire 7 yr situation is the main reason….I hadn’t dealt with neither of em’ for at least 2 yrs then he called wtih his sob story can’t pay I gave him a break and 6 mths later he takes ME to court to reduce…but produces nothing to substantiate it yet everyone is mad at me for fighting for what my child deserves??? screw em’
December 2, 2008 at 2:16 pm
Ok I saw # 905 gotta be a jamaican dance lolzz…disgusting….nasty…i mean how dare you not wear panties, not shave and then not even look like you’re trying to pull that mess down???? eeeyeelelllll lolzz
December 2, 2008 at 2:18 pm
Outerbanks sounds relaxing FB …there are some beautiful homes there and anything near water is soothing – I feel you on that…even with a ton of energy – everyone needs to relax now and then….I need to do that right now lol
December 2, 2008 at 2:20 pm
ooh PRO he’s a cutie…nice bod too….do you still keep in touch…then again NAH you need to focus on your happy home:) lolzz
December 2, 2008 at 2:21 pm
but Antigua sounds like a good girl road trip!
December 2, 2008 at 2:22 pm
Jin, they can kick rocks. I’d tell his wife, to reflect on this…she could be you in a coupla of years..dumb b*tch.
December 2, 2008 at 2:24 pm
He stops by and speaks on myspace every now and again. But nothing deep, I am committed to my home..lol.
He was my fun timez guy..lol. He plays tennis as a profession
December 2, 2008 at 2:24 pm
Pro, I’d be my mistress too (because I KNOW I wouldn’t get caught!)
December 2, 2008 at 2:27 pm
I would like to fab up my warddrobe a little…getitng too comfortable with that
December 2, 2008 at 2:28 pm
And I want to redecorate my spare bedroom and paint my hallway
December 2, 2008 at 2:28 pm
Fun, huh???
December 2, 2008 at 2:29 pm
I figured it out…the more bor-ING I am, the less bo-RED I’ll be
December 2, 2008 at 2:31 pm
Because I hate wanting more…it makes me anxious and restless.
December 2, 2008 at 2:31 pm
I want to redo my house completly. You know, I’m too comfortable with my mudane life right now. I just want some splashes of excitement.
My guy and I decided we need our own radio show. We have the most entertaining exchanges…lol
December 2, 2008 at 2:33 pm
see, pro.. thats what i would kill for “entertaining exchanges”. more than good sex, more than him having a lot of money, or being “super fine”.. I just want a man with whom I could have an endless amount of “entertaining exchanges”. it’s harder to find that one might think
December 2, 2008 at 2:34 pm
Toi…..I completely know what you mean!!!
December 2, 2008 at 2:35 pm
I have a good sex outlet.
I don’t care about money at all. Just don’t.
Looks are…whatever. He only has to look good to me.
December 2, 2008 at 2:37 pm
You know, my relationship isn’t perfect…but its just right, you know? And that stuff right there is what makes me know I’m blessed in my relationship.
When I was sick this weekend…y’all, this negro first, bickered at me about not going to get my flu shot, then why he dress me in his sweats, his hoodiehis elmer fudd hat with the fur and tuck me in the bed with a hot toddy, talking about..you going to sweat this sh*t out. Everyone that was over for the holidays was cracking up, but this negro was serious as a heart attack..I looked like a damn fool..lol
December 2, 2008 at 2:38 pm
exactly Fb. you get it.. cause after all is said and done, if we cant talk and be entertained with each other.. then what the hell is the point of it all…
December 2, 2008 at 2:39 pm
thats so sweet, pro
December 2, 2008 at 2:40 pm
yeah it is
December 2, 2008 at 2:45 pm
I’m going to quit at this point cause I’d get mushy. But, I do elect to celebrate him, and he does the same for me, and its endearing.
Always talk to him about those moments, how not to allow life to get the best of us and f*ck up what we have, cause it is unique..and I feel blessed for it.
Everytime I talk crazy too him, he says “thats not no way to talk to yo man. Woman!” that sh*t just cracks me up, the first time he said that I about fell out.
Told y’all our alter egos are Sleeroy and Tatatalicious…lol. We going to turn it into a comic book, yup, finally meet someone as weird as my ass..who would’ve thunk it?
December 2, 2008 at 2:50 pm
Funny, the “perfect” man for me (Mr. Right Now…the one in my imagination) has a lot of the same qualities that I like about myself.
December 2, 2008 at 2:50 pm
I don’t want an opposite, or a yin to my yang. Just wanna have fun.
December 2, 2008 at 2:54 pm
I think that’s what its about having fun. We have our moments, but we don’t take each other too seriously. We are trash talkers, so we will talk crazy to each other all damn day.
Its funny, he’ll piss me off about something, I’ll say in my mind, I’m leaving his ass, then the other part of my mind says..shut up, you know you ain’t going no damn where..lol
December 2, 2008 at 3:06 pm
Laughter is the BIGGEST aphrodisiac to me. Hands down. Nothing even comes close…and the more sarcastic, the better. Goofy runs a close second though. Just be stupid, I love it.
December 2, 2008 at 3:06 pm
PRO don’t stop talking about it be mushy if you want…basque in the glory of a good solid relationship ups and downs and all…its a beautiful thing…
actually redecorating my place is on my list too…my daughter’s room is the only room that’s actually “done” in any artistic/creative way….lolzz…the rest is fine…but not really reflective of my personality though in my head I know exactly what I want…
December 2, 2008 at 3:07 pm
yeah having fun is key…haven’t had fun in a while…i think people get comfortable complacent and forget to keep having fun….the first two months were fun…now it just is….
December 2, 2008 at 3:11 pm
My son’s room is (ready for a shocker?) done in a NY Giants theme.
Blue carpet, red curtains, red and blue bedding, and various Giants-related accessories. I got him out of the house for the weekend and surprised him a few years ago for his birthday. Painted, got the carpet guy in, did the whole thing in 1 and a half days. He loved it! Last Christmas he got a big Eli Manning Fathead. It’s awesome.
He said it would be cool if I did my room like that too. He said “how many other kids’ moms would have a Giants bedroom?”…..lol….I told him I dunno….but his mom wasn’t doing it..
December 2, 2008 at 3:22 pm
Damn, I really am kinda boring
December 2, 2008 at 3:23 pm
how cute FB…as long as he loves it wonder what age he’ll be when he grows out of it lol…its always fun to surprise them like that….umm myour room…ah NO don’t do it lmao…just remember one day you just may want a man in there lolzz…not sure that football as much as guys love it …is conducive to romance…then again it might be if you’re truly kindred spirits lol;)
December 2, 2008 at 3:24 pm
I am kinda pissed that I have no justification for creating a love den in my bedroom. My ex or my son are always stopping by unannounced at random times. I had George over one night and was paranoid. Made him show up at 11 and leave at 4 am
December 2, 2008 at 3:27 pm
I think the ultimate love bed would be king-sized with NO headboard…centered in the middle of the room. Need a big room for that though
December 2, 2008 at 3:31 pm
lmao FB yeah you’re surrounded by boys but that’s ok…just do something you like…don’t worry I’m not all girlie girlie either…i hate flowery sheets/curtains….just let it express you:)…
KING SIZED is my ultimate bed too..yippers on the large bedroom.can’t fit in my bedroom now lolzzz….
December 2, 2008 at 3:32 pm
I hate headboards
December 2, 2008 at 3:32 pm
ok not for nothing I held out on mr. man on sat and now I’m dying LMAO …i seriously don’t know how or why peope do that teehee…its killin’ me and I refuse to ADMIT IT lmao…just gotta suck it up as there WAS a point in me doing it lolzzz
December 2, 2008 at 3:38 pm
okay well I’m gonna share my themes…my room I want purple and chocolate…just love that color combo…saw it in a mag once and its so ME lolz…my kitchen already has hints of tangerine just gotta follow through and paint, etc…..living room rusts, bronze….and then add accent pieces…as much as I love HGTV and decorating books it should be done already just wish I was better at the manual labor part …I just can’t see myself actually putting up curtain rods, hanging mirrors…redoing tiles…guess I just have to try though as I never thought I’d paint well yet my daughter’s room came out fabulous! No one really believes I painted it lol but it felt pretty darn good:)
December 2, 2008 at 3:38 pm
LORD HAVE MERCI….HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP……
HHHHHHHHHHHHHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP
WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOU REALIZE SOMEONE YOU TRUST IS A LIAR……….
December 2, 2008 at 3:39 pm
I KNOW I need some serious and lengthy all-night cuddling/snuggling. Call me lame if you want. I know that’s EXACTLY what I want. And not with ol’ George either.
December 2, 2008 at 3:40 pm
kingston, depends on how close the person is to you?
December 2, 2008 at 3:40 pm
I think i will convert from a dick lover to a lesbian this weekend.
December 2, 2008 at 3:41 pm
um okay..
December 2, 2008 at 3:43 pm
God……why are relationships so hard….everyone on here knows how much I care about Dame…..I think yall realize it more than him……he’s a liar…and i hate liars…..I have a thing for dishonesty…its so bad I think people that lie and steal should be put to death and right now I just want him dead…
December 2, 2008 at 3:44 pm
ok…well maybe not dead…but DEAD
December 2, 2008 at 3:45 pm
why did yall leave when I need to vent scream….and just cry…Jin Im going to call you tonight crying…please be ready…..I need a phone shoulder!!!!!!
December 2, 2008 at 3:46 pm
I’m just waiting for you to say what happened…..??
December 2, 2008 at 3:55 pm
what happon?
December 2, 2008 at 3:58 pm
what’s going on …? kingston?
December 2, 2008 at 4:00 pm
who’s here?
December 2, 2008 at 4:02 pm
I am…just waiting to see what happened to kingston.,…..
December 2, 2008 at 4:03 pm
men are dogs ….I swear….and that’s for my girl …NOT ME for a change! I’ll let her tell it…but I’m mad as hell!!!
December 2, 2008 at 4:11 pm
What happened? What did he do? I’ll kick his ass
December 2, 2008 at 4:13 pm
The world may never know
December 2, 2008 at 4:14 pm
Ill talk about it another time…people…..cliffhanger…..ooooooooohhhhhhhhhh……lol…….
December 2, 2008 at 4:16 pm
Don’t you hate, when you can tell your emails are being forwarded?
. I may be a little tarnished, armour a little chipped. But honey, I will shine, I will smile and have the satisfaction of knowing that I’m a good friend, I’m an honest person, and I stay true to myself.
My friends have the satisfaction of KNOWING, that an unkind word will never be spoken, there secrets will be kept, and they’ll never have to question my intergrity.
Still, wishin you the best! And I mean that will so much sincerity…So, you shine too. Now, cut and past and foward this one
December 2, 2008 at 4:18 pm
what is going onnnnnnnnnnnnnn, i feel so lost.
December 2, 2008 at 4:21 pm
Pro’s killing someone with kindness
December 2, 2008 at 4:22 pm
I don’t want to grow up I’m a toys r us kid…
December 2, 2008 at 4:23 pm
imma go eat some pie. maybe it will be clearer when i come back
December 2, 2008 at 4:23 pm
Sorry, random post. I just know a little birdie still watches..curiousity is a hell of a drug.
December 2, 2008 at 4:26 pm
I just want to find myself again. I so hate the bottomless pit of not knowing I’ve become towards the end of this year and it sucks and I suck and ugggggggggghhhhhhhh…I’m going to do more work…
December 2, 2008 at 4:27 pm
that’s frigged up Pro…to summarize king’s peeps made a mistake and she’s not doing too well…she’ll tell the story when she’s better..meanwhile let’s all give a united hug!!! cause she needs one…this too shall pass….
December 2, 2008 at 4:28 pm
Ki you suck far less than most people. I only think you suck when you decide to be responsible and do work or write papers
December 2, 2008 at 4:30 pm
lol @ Ki…..I suck and ugggggggggghhhhhhhh…I’m going to do more work…
yeah life bites sometimes…but take a bite back….
December 2, 2008 at 4:31 pm
It passes…and it’s good that it came to light…just deal…cry…vent…scream…and know that we’ve all been there…don’t beat yourself up…
December 2, 2008 at 4:31 pm
I just read what I wrote to Ki. It implies that she sucks somewhat but less than most. That’s hardly a compliment, huh? lol…I meant to say that she doesn’t suck at ALL!
December 2, 2008 at 4:34 pm
kingston….hope whatever happened isn’t TOO bad….
December 2, 2008 at 4:34 pm
Now you’re just lying FB, because I know on any given occassion I suck just as bad if not worse than most….
December 2, 2008 at 4:35 pm
You need to clarify the word suck then
December 2, 2008 at 4:36 pm
BLESSEDDDDDDDDDD is back?
December 2, 2008 at 4:37 pm
BITE LIFE IN DAH BISCUITS
December 2, 2008 at 4:39 pm
i got rock biscuits
December 2, 2008 at 4:43 pm
I had this feeling when I woke up that I knew what kind of a day this was going to be, and I was right.
December 2, 2008 at 4:45 pm
Blah. Uninspiring and cold. I did get some nice text messages early this morning which were kind of unexpected but otherwise…dead on. (speaking for myself obviously)
December 2, 2008 at 4:46 pm
ki this sucky feeling must be contagious cause I’ve been having a sucky feeling for the past two days…was just trying to fight it then Pro reminded me about being positive and fighting the negative and I got revved up again…but now I’m stuck bet. sucky and positive right on the center line…why oh why…hmmm what the HELL did I accomplish this year???
December 2, 2008 at 4:48 pm
Hey, if you kept your head above water and nothing really bad happened this year, don’t take that for granted.
December 2, 2008 at 4:49 pm
good point FB:) somehow someway we’ve almost made it!
December 2, 2008 at 4:49 pm
You’ll get through it Kingston. You will. And when you’re ready to talk we’re here.
December 2, 2008 at 4:50 pm
If you can come up with more GOOD things that happened to you than BAD, it’s a successful year, in a sense!
I hope something amazing happens to all of us next year but even if everyone’s just “good”, that’s…..good!
December 2, 2008 at 4:54 pm
i feel this horrible urge to cry…ugh I hate life sometimes!!!
December 2, 2008 at 4:55 pm
i ate pie, now i want a drink
December 2, 2008 at 4:56 pm
that lady didnt have no job lead at my job…what a wasted callback.
i wonder if i have candy downstairs
December 2, 2008 at 4:57 pm
Goodnight everyone…see you guys tomorrow
December 2, 2008 at 4:59 pm
I don’t want to cry…I’m kind of angry…but I’m not angry at anyone…I’m angry at myself…because a lot of the stress I have right now is self inflicted…and now I’m pulling myself out of it…but I realize I’m idiot for even being here in the first place…I just wonder sometimes what the Hades was I thinking…but oh well…you live…you learn…you fight another day…and next year has got to be better…I’ll be finished with school…and maybe I can start to reclaim some pieces of my life…
December 2, 2008 at 5:00 pm
YOU CAN DO IT KI!!!
bye FB
December 2, 2008 at 5:02 pm
I’ve allowed myself to get stuck. I think I allowed a friendship that I let go of get the best of me. I usually allow sh*t to go off my back like water. But I think the fact that I was a damn good friend to this person, through people calling her shallow, through the cattyness.
To the point were I actually hate this person. And that makes me sad, cause I’ve never hated anyone. Hated her more cause she never stood up, never once said, you know maybe I’m wrong and hate myself even more cause I allowed this childish gay sh*t to effect me.
I think I chalk it up to me being so sick..being sick as a dog and having to deal with trivial sh*t…Kingston, sometimes people are just blah. You put too much faith in them. Everybody has their own agenda, people go for self perservation, whats in their best interest, you know?
December 2, 2008 at 5:05 pm
IS PENNY HOVERING?
December 2, 2008 at 5:06 pm
That’s why this has been the wisdom of the day:
“What is the quality of your intent?”
for two days running. It’s all about intentions and in the last week I’ve learned that some people I really trusted had the worst intentions ever. So it’s made me question my judgement and myself and my life as a whole. Maybe it’s just end of the year reflection with a PMS edge…who knows…
December 2, 2008 at 5:06 pm
I’ve had like 4 arguments/disagreements in the past 30 hours and I’m exhausted/tired fed up…my daughter’s dad’s wife wont’ stop emailing me telling me everything from I’m a horrible mother cause I’m “begging” fro child support to take care of my kid instead of “just handling it as a mother”…then she drudges up a ton of 7yr old stuff that happened when he first dated her mind you he was trying to get bk with me and getting with her…then she tells me that “someone” told her I don’t have successful relationships and that its cause of my “ghetto” attitude…ok now let’s be real you ALL have been listening to me, viewing my pics on myspace whatever talking to me…. for months…seriously am I GHETTO? now I know she doesn’t know me from adam and even if ’someone” *(an inlaw or her lying butt hubby) really told her anything who the hell is she to judge me and what do any of them know i don’t tell them whether or not I got a man…friggin TOXIC PEOPLE
then I asked a friend if he could fix the computer at my mom’s houee which is actually my sisters who lives there but ALL the kids use it as they’re there almost every evening…he fixes it texts me pick it up after work…so my sis says I’m coming to get u I assume they spoke and he told her to come …but once we’r halfway there I say so he told u he was home she said uh no didn’t he tell u to come after work??? we stopped i called he says I M AT MY 2nd job (like we’re supposed to friggin’ know!!! so i was already pissed about something else havin’ a bad day so I just said “WHAT ” and gave my sis the phone ….she specifically said he said he gets off at 830 but I don’t know where the hell his job is nor how long it will take him to get home>>>so fine…we go home and we’re expecting the fool to call…meanwhile apparently he was expecting us to just come over when he got home (HE NEVER SAID WHEN TO COEM DUMB BUTT)…so around 10pm my cell goes off its a text and it says (mind you NO CALLS CAME IN AT ALL PRIOR)…this is the first thing I ssee
“Let me see if I am getting this right. You ask me to fix your mom’s PC which turns out to be your sister’s PC. Then just cause I couldn’t leave my job at 730 to be here now u not answering ya phone or text and I am the one doing you a favor, wow Ya live ya learn.”
OKAY can I just say I WENT OFF>>…I called him and told his damn butt off how DARE YOU accuse me of trying to play you …first of all I NEVER told him to do it for FREE he said i fyou bring it to my house I won’t charge but If I do a house call I bill by the hour…so DUH you gave an option…then we didn’t even expect it to be done that FASt so it didn’t matter if we picked it up the next day….needless to say he’s erased out my phone not a friend went to the house as my sis doesn’t know directions well at that MOMENT got her PC and I sat in the car looking straight ahead…fool’s tapping on the window “why’s she mad?” dumb buttt..why wouldn’t you just say “yo j why you not answering my calls” but no homie WENT IN…tired of people taking my nice demeanor for a friggin weakness I have feelings too
THEN my beau is mad says “why is your ex hubbys wife harrassing you if this is supposedly done years ago” UMMM WTF ASK HER DUMB BUTT>…she believes whatever that a hole says and he likes to think the world WANTS him so he probably tells her that dumb ish!
i am beginning to be sick of people in general and trust no one and now this whole vibe is making my beau think this is how my life regularly is and its not….I don’t even have contact with my daughter’s dad on the regular…UGHHHHHHH
December 2, 2008 at 5:10 pm
Give us her email, we’ll handle it for you Jin
Penny? Huh? lol.
December 2, 2008 at 5:11 pm
that sucks Jin. Got me feeling like being poor aint that bad DAMN
December 2, 2008 at 5:13 pm
almost feel like it aint that bad-lol
December 2, 2008 at 5:17 pm
LMAO femme glad to help….the characters I let into my life never cease to amaze me…now this cheap ghetto mf’er with the computer keeps sending me dumb emails “you know you still sweet” balh blabh friggin’ blah…once my temper flares and it takes a long long time to see it in full swing …my sis was doing whatever I said and SHE NEVER DOES what I say…but she knew he set me off cause I was under the covers in PJS and I called her like WE ARE GOING TO GET YOUR ISH NOW!! lmao I’m ok…thanks for listening..yeah I should get a bunch of people to flood her emails with BS…damn Arkansas hoochie! met him on freakin’ BLack planet…and posted her name with his last name and we were only separated 2 freakin’ months…how desperate was she? warned her he wasn’t a door prize and that he would LIE and say I LIED but she didn’t listen and NOW payback is a mutha…warned him that she was a Pain in teh butt as she wouldn’t ever let us talk about our child without her being on the line from bk then…told him anyone else BUT HER I got a bad vibe now he has to ask her for money to buy toilet paper to wipe his a$$ …i’m fired up lolzz..let me stop
December 2, 2008 at 5:20 pm
it ain’t femme none of it is…its all relative…day in day out we all got something good something bad…some say it soem share some don’t they hold it in or deal with it another way….we’re all alive and that’s a blessing JUST LIVE YOUR LIFE whatever it brings..hell that bus driver lost his life cause he wouldn’t give a mna that didn’t pay to GET on the damn bus a TRANSFER ? so you punch a bus driver and STAB him 4 times!!! it could always be worse….just pray and say god bless us all…everything works out somehow someway and anyone who does anything bad pays in their own way in God’s time….so I just try to do my best by everyone, apologize and admit to myself when I frig up….the rest is in his hands…he alone knows my heart….
December 2, 2008 at 5:21 pm
lol
December 2, 2008 at 5:22 pm
yes
December 2, 2008 at 5:24 pm
yes
December 2, 2008 at 5:24 pm
Save her emails, take them to court with you next time Jin
December 2, 2008 at 5:25 pm
lmao at least I made you laugh my work here is done:) did you get my msg on myspace..i’m dead serious ok? i’m always good for making anyone laugh regardless of how bad it is …soemthing in my gene pool lmao
December 2, 2008 at 5:31 pm
you serious? you think the judge will care??? she’s held off on me getting my money 3 times already? and HE took ME to court in Sept…didn’t bring paperwork to back it up then she said come bk in NOV again the fool has new job since OCT (only paid 350 of 1300) NEVER got a stub (WTF) and FORGOT his bank statement friggin’ convenient…so finally she threw his case out of court so I jumped in with the arrears…and she says COME BK IN JAN …so he owes since MAY and I have to wait some more….friggin’ amazing…I think court only works fo rthe ones getting too much money in the first place who are doing it for the wrong damn reasons…but I’ll print em’ we’ll see…
December 2, 2008 at 5:32 pm
ooh venting felt good I’m relieved…now going home to take a drink…might just get twisted….and go to bed….
December 2, 2008 at 5:33 pm
I LOVE YOU LADIES and the few gents:) we’re all a lot stronger than we think!
December 2, 2008 at 5:39 pm
I wish you had a lawyer to rake him over the coals. We loves you too!
December 2, 2008 at 5:50 pm
I know the atty I work for has me searching for a pro bono…but the court appointed said my lil pittance is too much lmao…but I’m still searching…maybe I can find one for FREE by our Jan court date….meanwhile I’m gonna find a way to take care of what i have to somehow someway and pray for me cause tonight I have to explain to the owner of mi casa why she should wait till my next chk and not kick me to the curb …gotta laugh…can’t cry no more:)
GOOD NIGHT GUYS:)
December 2, 2008 at 5:58 pm
So this is where you all went! And to think, I’m just finding it, lol! Oh well…I gotta go to dance class…I’ll read you guys’ lunacy when I get back! I know you’re all gone but have a good evening anyway!!!